Don't be Sucky!!

It is not easy to have strength.  

What do I mean by strength? 

Athletes have strength, but they're not born with it. Sure, they may be blessed with certain physical attributes that work to their advantage in their sport. But they also train constantly. Nobody wakes up and just joins the Olympics. It takes lots of effort and hard work. Boxer keeps collapsing after only the first couple of punches? Gotta train more, and maybe do something different. Maybe dodge more quickly or time their punches better. (I don't know much about boxing, but I'm trying here!)

Musicians develop stronger listening skills and technique by practicing. (Okay, this is something I know more about!) As a singer, I sometimes struggle with projection, but I have improved through lessons and countless hours of practice. I was not born a strong singer, rather I became stronger through my own will and efforts.

The same can be applied to inner strength.

What do I mean by inner strength? 

I mean having resilience. Courage. Knowing who you are and being that, unashamedly. Heck, inner strength can be so many things. 

Like many people, I have not had an easy life. I have been treated poorly, devalued, abused, and betrayed. For a long time, I felt very sad and discouraged. My life felt hopeless. I was living in the past, understandably so. All that trauma wore me down. I was tired. I'm still tired. But now, I am trying to be more in the moment. I laugh at myself more and have more fun. I don't take life as seriously. I find that I am less anxious when I don't try to control things or people that I don't have control over. I let it be. I also don't let other people's opinions of me affect me as much. I'm a big ball of weird and proud of it! 

This progress has not been easy, of course. It has taken a lot of time and is a continuous movement. I am always working on myself. It took me a long time to come to these epiphanies. 

My main goal of this blog is to talk about strength and my own personal journey getting to where I am now. We are own fighting our own battles and dealing with demons, and I want to give hope. I strive to look at my bad experiences and feelings in a more positive light and work through them, not around them. Life sucks sometimes--doesn't mean we have to be sucky people as a result.